So today it has rained pretty much all day. It is cool, damp, and gloomy. That is kind of how I would describe my mood today too. Gloomy. We have been fighting with AT &T since May 4 over taking a payment out of our account more than once. Since that time we have had over a thousand dollars in fee. They are not wanting to pay, and finally today we went to our bank and the bank manager called ATT. They say they are working on it. But good grief. This causes some pretty major messes...that will take some time I am sure to clean up. It is frustrating. and a little overwhelming.

School is overwhelming right now too. The class I am in, American Literature, is very time consuming. A lot of reading, a lot of writing. and it is the end of the school year which means life in general is crazy. The kids will be at of school at the end of this month, and we will get Brooklyn ready for high school It just doesn't seem possible. Wasn't it just yesterday I held her in my arms? Time, there never seems to be enough of it.

So, there are so many things going on right now and frankly sometimes I feel like I am in over my head. I mean seriously over my head. People having major crisis, families needing complete healing, relationships that need mended and burdens that need to be lifted. I am thankful that I serve a God who does not become overwhelmed with the hurts and pains that are all around us. I am so glad he hears and understands each one. And he is never once caught off guard by any circumstance or crisis. He is prepared and has already gone to where we each our going.

Job lost everything he had within a matter of minutes and you know what his response was?? "At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship" Job 1:20. He worshiped. I wish I was in that place, when the first thing I did in the midst of a crisis was fall to the ground and worship. Being in the presence of The MOST Holy God, is our privilege and God wants to meet us there. Nothing happens to us that doesn't first pass through Him. Oh that I might worship Him.

So tonight, in the midst of my this gloomy day, I am going to have a worship service, right here in my living room. Praising the God who loves me and holds me in His arms. He has everything, every detail already worked out in every situation. S

The kids are in bed. The dog is asleep at my feet. Jason is at practice. The house is quiet. Except for the interruption of  thunder. Sometimes that is how my heart feels, we are moving a long quietly and calmly only to be interrupted by clack of thunder. Everytime you log into facebook the question is ask " what's on your mind?" I think that might be a loaded question. I mean most days are mind are a race track of to do list, important information, things to remember, phone calls to make, dinner to fix, kids to transport. I mean really, our minds are full. So how come we jump when the thunder breaks our silence? Some time we need the thunder to wake us up and show us there is a storm coming. Other times we need the thunder to show us that we are on the wrong path. And sometimes we just need the thunder to remind us that we were getting way to comfortable in status qua. I know that we don't enjoy the storms that usually come with thunder, but often time the storm is just what we need.

So I am setting here in my chair listening to the thunder. Thinking about where I am, where I am going and where I have been. Reflecting on the fact that God and I have weathered many storms and He always brings me through. Reminding myself that He will continue to be faithful in any future storms or ones I may be going through now. You see I know that their is a purpose for the storm, I may never get to know why but it serves a purpose.

I will blog about preaching my first sermon on Mother's day soon. Right now, I need to listen to the thunder...

What not to wear? I am sure most of you have watched the show on TLC. They take people who they think can't dress themselves (and most of them really do need help) and take them from frumpy to fashionable, ugly to beautiful and out dated to modern chic. At our mother daughter sister friend brunch today this was our theme- what not to wear. This was my first time to speak at a something like this. As I talked about the things we tend to wear or accessorize with I was struck with the fact that it is pretty easy to fall into some pretty unflattering patterns. Luckily for us we can throw away these things and put on some more flattering traits.

It was a good day. I was struck with the power of God in my life. When you open your mouth to speak and you hear not your confidence but God's it is truly amazing! I am humbled that God has called me to be His hands and feet. ( and sometimes His mouth piece)

So tonight I am going to bed anticipating what God has in store for tomorrow and thankful for the blessings of today.