So the last couple of weeks have been extremely stressful, and it seems like the days and weeks are flying by. My to do list seems to be as long at night as it was in the morning and most things get carried over to the next day.

Some of the stress has really taken a toll on me- and that bothers me. I don't want circumstances of my life to make me bitter and when I review all the "stuff" of my life I think I have done a pretty good job of not becoming bitter. But lately it seems like I am in a battle with discouragement, disappointment and bitterness. Like I have a ton of bricks setting on my chest all the time. This week I made my list of things that I have to accomplish and at the top of that list it... time with God to allow him to work in me. I need his working in my life. I need him to come in and sweep out the "stuff' that doesn't need to be there. I need Him!

I keep reading verses about how He chooses us- and I think there might be something to that. Most days lately I feel very unworthy of him choosing me.

In all these things that are going on- I have tried real hard to see where God is leading me and my family. TO look at the big picture and not just the right now. To not focus on the faults of those around me but to see the areas I need to work on- and I know I have many.

So this week- I ask that you pray for me. Pray that I really do allow God to work on me. I know it might be painful, and it might be hard work but it will be worth it in the end if I allow the most HOLY LOVING GOD to work in me.

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