I just think that today has brought me to a place of thinking- WOW, I really can't do it all. I can't even remotely do it all.  My walls seem to be closing in on me. We have a non-profit organization that needs our attention...desperately. Church stuff needs my attention- asap... home stuff that needs attention right now. Not to mention deadlines and assignments due for school.

Don't get me wrong, I really know that I can't do it all, I know that it is a busy time. I also know that it feels like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.  I really thought Jason would find a job quicker, we are going on our second month. I really thought that with all of the people we knew and the headhunters working, he would at least have had more interviews.  He did have a great interview last week, but they are still interviewing... that isn't necessarily a bad thing, it is just more waiting...How many times have I been reminded to "wait on the Lord". that is so much easier said than done.I wish I could say that I have arrived at waiting patiently on the Lord, and that worry never crosses my mind. But well, you read my blog you know that isn't the case.

I have to admit, I learn so much in those waiting times. I can look back at those times in my life where I have had to wait, and those were times of great growth and learning. But I guess today- I think i have grown enough, and have learned all that I want to right now... :) I guess learning is a never ending process and I am thankful for that, just right now, I wish things were different...
 
Yes please give me some cheese with this whine I am doing right now...GOOD GRIEF! I know that I am very blessed. I have 4 healthy children. I have a husband that loves me, and takes very good care of us. I have a job, Jason has a contract job he is doing right now. We have food, we have 2 cars, we have lots of people that love us and support us. and most of all we serve an amazing God.

Whining is now complete... I will count my blessing tonight, instead of my stresses!

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