I really don't even know where to start. the kids are getting older, and the challenges we now face seem so much bigger than potty training, conquering sleeping all night and fighting over the toys. The pressure of raising kids is pretty intense at times. Frankly it is overwhelming. I am amazed at their perspective sometimes and when they do let you in their thoughts I am sad and somewhat discouraged. It seems like when I think things are going well and life is smoothing out, I find out from them they really think it is not...I try to remember that they are after all teenagers and sometimes what they think is not reality. On the other hand, I try to look for the truth in what they say. So needless to say, I have a lot on my mind. Trying to keep all the balls in the air...trying not to drop the ones that are the most important, the ones that break when they fall. This fast paced life of family, ministry and work seemed to be a little overwhelming. I just need to find the right schedule, right or better way to parent and communicate. Who knew parenting was so challenging?? :)

I want with all my heart to be the wife, mom and pastor called me to be. I want my husband to know he was the loved and respected by his wife. I want my kids to know they were my life and i love them with all my heart. God has called me to be Jason's wife, Brooklyn, Jordan, Colton and Kailyn's mom and then Pastor .

So tonight I pray that my schedule will be pleasing to God and that I will be all that I am suppose to be. I pray that I will have wisdom to deal with every situations and that I will let God control my life i