First of all let me say! Happy father's day! I am blessed to have many great men in my life who have made a positive impact on me.
 A.L Hayton, my grandfather, was an amazing man of God, who I am sure had faults, but I did not see them. I miss him and I wish he could see who I am today. I hope he would be proud.
 Roger, my dad, he did a great job of being my dad and loving me even when I probably wasn't very lovable. He worked many long hours to provide for me. I am sure that some days he wished he wasn't coming home to an empty house and  a little girl, but he did it everyday. Thank you dad. I love you.
Charlie, my step-dad, who no matter how snotty and hateful I was, loved me anyway. I am thankful you stuck around and are part of our lives today.
Jason, my husband...so much I could say and yet I don't know where to start. You and I no one thought would last and yet we have built our family together one brick at a time. You show amazing strength in the face of difficulty, you love unconditionally, and you ask for so little in return. You have made decisions that changed the course of history for your kids and their kids. You are loved and appreciated. You model for your kids what it means to love your wife and cherish her. You model for your kids what it means to love and serve God. you listen, you love and you hold all of us when we need it. We love you. I love you. And Thank you.
Tom- my boss, my pastor, my friend. Much I could say but I will simply say, Thank you for believing in me...everyday! I appreciate it more than I could ever put into words.
Happy Father's Day! I love you all and hope that today you knew you were loved.

On another note, I have been sick... sicker than I have been in years. I have basically laid in bed for 3 days. This has not been easy for me at all. I feel behind on everything. But laying in bed sicker than a dog has a way of making you think about a lot of things.  Probably not new thoughts just some reminder. I will share them with you.
1. I do not like being alone and without social interaction. I had to miss the last night of VBS, and church this morning.  I had to miss Jordan singing in Honors Choir. It just about killed me. I ached to be there. Seriously. It was difficult. Now for those of you who have known me a long time... you are going Duh! I like being around people. I am a little social ( okay maybe a lot)
2. Sometimes you have to be forced to rest- I don't like this one either. Resting is not something I do very often, and I should. I have had the last 3 days to think about a lot of things. Some I needed too, others I wish I didn't have to and yet others that I didn't need too.
3. Satan uses times when you are low to attack even harder. Honestly, i am ready for him ( satan) to move on. I am tired of his assaults and worn down. I do not like the things Satan is saying right now. I do not like how he is using things and people to throw daggars in my direction. I do not like feeling defeated.
4. Being sick made me make a very difficult decision. one I did not enjoy making, and the feelings that accompanied that were like a further kick in the gut. I was suppose to preach today. And finally at 9:00 last night, I knew that would not be possible. Making that call was hard but I know the right one.
5. Kids do not like it when their mom is sick. They may not like it when I am well either, but I need to be well.

So there are a few things that went across my mind in the last 3 days. Trust me there was more but this blog would be way too long. I did get some rest, but now I am behind on school work, and other important things.

Also, during this time Jason's grandma Todd died. He will be going to the funeral tomorrow, while I stay here for Jordan's surgery he is having on Tuesday. I think I need a vacat