Tonight was one of those nights I just needed to be normal...i know some of you are saying Gina- you are never normal. Or what is normal exactly. To me normal is fixing dinner, all of us eating it together , then doing things around our home. That's what we did tonight. Jason grilled and we had an amazing dinner. Then I went out to do one of the most therapeutic things for me, and that is work in the flowers and pull the weeds. We are rarely home and the yard was looking very neglected. I love having my fingers in the dirt. Pulling the weeds that seem to grow right up the middle of every plant. I can work there and all the stress and junk that is weighing me down slips away. I think about how the good comes right up with the bad and if we leave the bad there ( the weeds) it overtakes the good. Much like life. We have to do frequent weeding to maintain the good.  I spent hours working out there tonight. I am not done but it looks a little better. I made progress. I can see where I have been and I can see what still needs to be done. Then it got dark and I couldn't see anymore so we all came in. The kids were playing a game and I made them some cupcakes. It was just a normal mom thing to do. It felt nice. So at 10:30 at night, I was baking cupcakes. Not because I had too but because I wanted too. Just to be normal. Just to be Gina- the mom.

It was just one of those days. When with each beat of my heart, I felt like my chest might explode. Situations that need answers, that I do not have. Lessons I need to learn, children who need me to teach them. A husband who needs a wife. Then there was the encounter with God at the grocery store- I often wonder why God chooses to talk to us in the places that he does. I mean seriously is Hyvee the best place to have a conversation? Crying women going up and down the aisle tends to draw attention. But we are talking about God, and he can talk to us whenever he chooses- we just need to listen. I guess he thought I would listen best today at Hyvee. So as you can see, I just needed normal tonight. God knew I needed normal tonight. It was his gift to me. I am thankful.

Tomorrow will be another day-it will start just like any other day and I will be torn between jobs, tasks, parenting, being a wife and many other things, and that will be normal. Who knows I might even have another God encounter at Hyvee. But whatever the day holds, God has it all  under control. He doesn't need my help- he has... I just have to trust his timing in everything.