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The Journey is unexpected…

I wrote about Margin in my last post. It’s my word for the year. Since then I have been walking the tight rope of scrambling and resting in finding my normal.  I was recently speaking to some people who are allowing God to transform their lives in BIG, HUGE ways about how sometimes we hold on to things because it has become our normal…our comfort zone so to speak…and I thought back to my word: margin.  I really think that I have held on to things that I should have moved away from because holding on to them was normal.  I had become so used to being known as busy that I felt like I had to live up to it…its what I knew…its what had become…comfortable.  Except it really was not comfortable – it was exhausting.  Since I wrote the blog, lots of life has happened. It was like I was declaring I must put margin in place and Satan stepped up his game.   The journey of finding the new normal became unexpected, unscripted, exciting, terrifying and left me a little empty.

Empty is an interesting concept, because I believe empty is how God really wants us. When we empty ourselves of “us,” we let loose of all that we have been holding on to so tightly and we simply come to God, it is then that He can truly fill us with Himself.  When He talks about us being jars of clay to be filled with the Holy Spirit, he can only fill empty things.

I found myself empty and sick. Physically sick. Emotionally drained. Spiritually empty.  It was during this time that I found some truths that I needed to be able to move forward.  I know this was confirmed in those days…I have to have margins. I have to create space in my life so that I can sing and say and declare “it is well with my soul.”

No one can make my soul well except the Author and Perfector of my faith, and for Him to be able to make my soul well, I must pay attention to the soul. To pay attention to my soul I have to control my schedule, my time, my commitments…I have to be intentional about spending time in the presence of the King.  I do not want to sleep through the wonder of His holiness!

“Those who live at the ends of the Earth stand in awe of your wonders. From where the sun rises to where it sets, you inspire shouts of joy.” Psalm 65:8 NLT

I wish I could write that I have this all figured out…that I have achieved margin.  I cannot! What I can write is that I am on a journey with the my Abba Father. He is writing my story. He is directing my journey, He is so faithful to correct, to encourage, to pursue, forgive, offer grace and mercy and hold me when it all seems too much to bear. He is filling me with things I didn’t know I needed and subtracting things I thought I couldn’t ever let go of. He is showing me that this journey is unexpected and unscripted only to me… He has not been surprised by one single step.

I am learning that whatever I face I can cling to Jesus, as so many who have gone before me have done. In the midst of whatever it is – saying goodbye to loved ones, letting go of hurts and anger, fighting unimaginable battles – we can cling to Jesus and sing it is well with my soul.  It is not about the unscripted and unexpected. It is about trusting Jesus to see you through it…no matter what.

Challenging as it is…my soul has become my focus. My soul-care is vital to me being the daughter of the King He has called me to be.   I choose to focus on Jesus and the full life he has for me…and when I say full I do not meet full of busy. I mean full of Him.

So this wonderful, messy, unexpected, unscripted journey continues…

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  1. Gina, I just finished reading all of your blogs that I could find from 2015 until March 2016.God has blessed you with so many talents. Some you know about, some you might not know. And yet I believe that God has more for you in the years to come. You and your family has been such a blessing to Trinity. They have touched the lives of so many. I have seen the changes in the lives of The Bosse family in the past couple of years. All for the good of God. I have witnessed Trinity before the arrival of your family. During that dark period I had heard stories from those who had left Trinity and we’re and some still are attending First Baptist. I am not one that puts a lot of weight on gossip. But to many were correct about what I saw for myself. I could feel the tension when we would visit with our family. I did get the feeling that those leading the services were very much ME people. Perhaps that those who left should have stayed to help heal Trinity. But I believe that it was God’s hand that was instrumental in all of this. Through God our Saviour Jesus Christ I believe that by directing you to Trinity was and is for the best. The air is totally different at Trinity. People are rejoicing in His name. Numbers have grown and I can see the Holy Spirits hand on all. My prayer is that you continue to flourish and grow under His guidance. My God bless you and your family.

  2. Gina, I just finished reading all of your blogs that I could find from 2015 until March 2016.God has blessed you with so many talents. Some you know about, some you might not know. And yet I believe that God has more for you in the years to come. You and your family has been such a blessing to Trinity. They have touched the lives of so many. I have seen the changes in the lives of The Bosse family in the past couple of years. All for the good of God. I have witnessed Trinity before the arrival of your family. During that dark period I had heard stories from those who had left Trinity and we’re and some still are attending First Baptist. I am not one that puts a lot of weight on gossip. But to many were correct about what I saw for myself. I could feel the tension when we would visit with our family. I did get the feeling that those leading the services were very much ME people. Perhaps that those who left should have stayed to help heal Trinity. But I believe that it was God’s hand that was instrumental in all of this. Through God our Saviour Jesus Christ I believe that by directing you to Trinity was and is for the best. The air is totally different at Trinity. People are rejoicing in His name. Numbers have grown and I can see the Holy Spirits hand on all. My prayer is that you continue to flourish and grow under His guidance. My God bless you and your family.

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